Friday, December 31
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Im sure many of us had heard about the disaster which caused almost 80 thousands of deaths so far. Im pretty much affected by how fragile life is. I feel for 'em. Its beyond words, ________ (fill it in yourself, too sad to go on.)
Ive donated $30 and tons of clothings to Red Cross and i urge every one of you people to do just the same. I heard that they do not want clothings anymore, what they need most now are canned food and medication. Please, have a heart.
Im pretty much heartened when i heard the news reporting that we Singaporeans had donated about $5million so far. Thank God that there's so many people out there who are trying their very best to help. We cant save lifes, neither can we stop the tidal waves from coming. But we can help to donate whatever we can and keeping 'em in our prayers.
Dear Father, our Lord in heaven, may you watch over all the desperate people in need for food and shelter. May there be no more casualties and deaths, and give the people peace. Give them security and hope, and may they be strong to carry on this ardous journey in rebuilding their homes. I pray that they can get over the death of their loved ones as soon as possible, for life is short. And i pray all these in the name of you, our saviour. Amen.
Life, unpredictable and fragile, so vulnerable at times. This leads to my resolution for the new year, 2005.
Im sure many of us had heard about the disaster which caused almost 80 thousands of deaths so far. Im pretty much affected by how fragile life is. I feel for 'em. Its beyond words, ________ (fill it in yourself, too sad to go on.)
Ive donated $30 and tons of clothings to Red Cross and i urge every one of you people to do just the same. I heard that they do not want clothings anymore, what they need most now are canned food and medication. Please, have a heart.
Im pretty much heartened when i heard the news reporting that we Singaporeans had donated about $5million so far. Thank God that there's so many people out there who are trying their very best to help. We cant save lifes, neither can we stop the tidal waves from coming. But we can help to donate whatever we can and keeping 'em in our prayers.
Dear Father, our Lord in heaven, may you watch over all the desperate people in need for food and shelter. May there be no more casualties and deaths, and give the people peace. Give them security and hope, and may they be strong to carry on this ardous journey in rebuilding their homes. I pray that they can get over the death of their loved ones as soon as possible, for life is short. And i pray all these in the name of you, our saviour. Amen.
Life, unpredictable and fragile, so vulnerable at times. This leads to my resolution for the new year, 2005.
- Cherish all the people around me. My family, my friends, my aquaintances and even my foes.
- Be more positive towards life. Life is great if you know how to live the right way.
- Be studious and study really hard. I wanna be in the Director's Honours List.
- Get a boyfriend. For real.
- And lastly, quit smoking. I really need to.
While we fortunate people think about how we're gonna celebrate and welcome the coming new year, the victims of the Tsunami are constantly worrying and panicked about what's going to happen the next minute. It really dampens my mood. Totally not in the mood to celebrate the countdown tomorrow. But well, i still will.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:09:00 am
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Tuesday, December 28
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Its about 10am in the morning now, am in my school lab. Its the first lesson of the day and im freakin tired, like whats new. My internet is down, somehow. I couldnt connect to the internet ever since i upgraded my ram, changed my motherboard and the casing. Something is wrong, and the totally nuts about computer ME, cant do a shit to help. Im dead.
I managed to survive the night without the computer because the volleyball peeps stayed over at my place again. This time its only a few of em. [Mark, JingYang, Jeffrey and Ah kiam] Guoxiong left earlier after a few rounds of mahjong.
The bed was damn squeezy last night, i had no space to sleep at all. Felt kinda sick, flu and sorethroat, now having a little headache. argh. Din wanna come to school, but Mr Mark forced me to. =(
Andy drove my sis, myself and Jeffrey to Sim Lim in the noon to get the computer parts changed. Boy was the car ride hilarious. It was the first time he drove after he had his license, so yah, imagine all the craps and funny stuffs. Illegal turning, into the petrol kiosk, up the curb, going the wrong way, almost crashing into the bus, zooming past the red light.
I guess the other guys are still asleep at my place now, how i wish i could too. IM SICK! I could have gotten a MC and sleep my day at home. Everything was like in a huge mess, here and there. Woke up late this morning, grabbed my bag and go. Felt something was amiss and yes there were.
I left my floppy disk at home after completing all my access stuffs i had to do for my MBS lab right now, left my Microeconomics lecture notes at home after completing the tutorial questions and i have a lecture on that later on. Damn, just what was i doing?! Like a total blur girl. -shakes head-
Im so bored now. My lecturer is talking so much but it isnt getting into my ears and ive no idea what he's mumbling about. Totally lost. Right, so im practically just slacking here and typing nonsense trying to pass time as soon as possible. I think i shant go on. bye people, good day.
Its about 10am in the morning now, am in my school lab. Its the first lesson of the day and im freakin tired, like whats new. My internet is down, somehow. I couldnt connect to the internet ever since i upgraded my ram, changed my motherboard and the casing. Something is wrong, and the totally nuts about computer ME, cant do a shit to help. Im dead.
I managed to survive the night without the computer because the volleyball peeps stayed over at my place again. This time its only a few of em. [Mark, JingYang, Jeffrey and Ah kiam] Guoxiong left earlier after a few rounds of mahjong.
The bed was damn squeezy last night, i had no space to sleep at all. Felt kinda sick, flu and sorethroat, now having a little headache. argh. Din wanna come to school, but Mr Mark forced me to. =(
Andy drove my sis, myself and Jeffrey to Sim Lim in the noon to get the computer parts changed. Boy was the car ride hilarious. It was the first time he drove after he had his license, so yah, imagine all the craps and funny stuffs. Illegal turning, into the petrol kiosk, up the curb, going the wrong way, almost crashing into the bus, zooming past the red light.
I guess the other guys are still asleep at my place now, how i wish i could too. IM SICK! I could have gotten a MC and sleep my day at home. Everything was like in a huge mess, here and there. Woke up late this morning, grabbed my bag and go. Felt something was amiss and yes there were.
I left my floppy disk at home after completing all my access stuffs i had to do for my MBS lab right now, left my Microeconomics lecture notes at home after completing the tutorial questions and i have a lecture on that later on. Damn, just what was i doing?! Like a total blur girl. -shakes head-
Im so bored now. My lecturer is talking so much but it isnt getting into my ears and ive no idea what he's mumbling about. Totally lost. Right, so im practically just slacking here and typing nonsense trying to pass time as soon as possible. I think i shant go on. bye people, good day.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:04:00 am
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Saturday, December 25
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X'mas 2004 was fantastic, terrific, marvellous, filled with fun, joy and LOVE. It was the best Christmas ever. Imagine 11 of us [Me, Ting, Juan, Leonard, Wayne, Amos, Derrick, Bape, Ah Mong, Sunny, Tiong Wee] sitting at a long table with turkey, honey baked ham, spaghetti, campbell soup, fried hotdogs, fried potato smiley, barbecued ribs and red wine. We switched off the lights and lighted candles instead. The atmosphere was wonderful. We ate till we almost exploded. But wait, that's not all! After which, we had almond jelly with longan, fruit tarts and of cos not forgetting the log cake. Our tummy exploded, we're like forcing the food down our throat.
Next, we hurried down to Cosy Bay with sparkles and the pop pops getting ready for the countdown. It was fun. Then we quickly headed off to town to catch the X'mas spirit. Ting and I were standing in Wayne's car with the top opened, popping our heads out and shouting MERRY XMAS to everyone. And damm, we got sprayed.
Town was total chaos, like whats new. But neither one of us got sprayed, cos we acted fierce in front of those who had the dangerous spray cans in their hands. Slacked around there, said MERRY XMAS to familiar faces and left to West Coast MacDonalds to slack and chill.
The guys gossiped around while we girls took a million pictures. Right, im crapping. But we did take a hell lot. All the funny poses, weird actions, got me laughing real hard. Supposingly staying over at Juan's place but Juan and Ting were all damn tired so i decided to go home too.
Reached home at 5+am, couldnt get to sleep. Mama came into da room at 6+am and we talked about how the night was spent. Feeling hungry at that point of time despite the heavy dinner which almost caused us to explode, so we decided to walk Ebony from East Coast to Marine Parade hawker centre for dim sum breakfast. I felt tired soon after.
Left early with my sis and collapsed on da comfy bed at 8+am. Just got up not long not because i had sufficient rest, but because my cramps are hurting me so much i wanted to cry. Like what da hell, i have my period right on Christmas day. -.-
Last but not least, ive uploaded all the pictures taken yesterday. Please please click here.
Oh yes, how can i forget. HO HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
p/s: Juan..you're driving is really okay..all u need is more practices and confidence i guess. No worries, you're good! At least better than you-kn0w-who. =))
X'mas 2004 was fantastic, terrific, marvellous, filled with fun, joy and LOVE. It was the best Christmas ever. Imagine 11 of us [Me, Ting, Juan, Leonard, Wayne, Amos, Derrick, Bape, Ah Mong, Sunny, Tiong Wee] sitting at a long table with turkey, honey baked ham, spaghetti, campbell soup, fried hotdogs, fried potato smiley, barbecued ribs and red wine. We switched off the lights and lighted candles instead. The atmosphere was wonderful. We ate till we almost exploded. But wait, that's not all! After which, we had almond jelly with longan, fruit tarts and of cos not forgetting the log cake. Our tummy exploded, we're like forcing the food down our throat.
Next, we hurried down to Cosy Bay with sparkles and the pop pops getting ready for the countdown. It was fun. Then we quickly headed off to town to catch the X'mas spirit. Ting and I were standing in Wayne's car with the top opened, popping our heads out and shouting MERRY XMAS to everyone. And damm, we got sprayed.
Town was total chaos, like whats new. But neither one of us got sprayed, cos we acted fierce in front of those who had the dangerous spray cans in their hands. Slacked around there, said MERRY XMAS to familiar faces and left to West Coast MacDonalds to slack and chill.
The guys gossiped around while we girls took a million pictures. Right, im crapping. But we did take a hell lot. All the funny poses, weird actions, got me laughing real hard. Supposingly staying over at Juan's place but Juan and Ting were all damn tired so i decided to go home too.
Reached home at 5+am, couldnt get to sleep. Mama came into da room at 6+am and we talked about how the night was spent. Feeling hungry at that point of time despite the heavy dinner which almost caused us to explode, so we decided to walk Ebony from East Coast to Marine Parade hawker centre for dim sum breakfast. I felt tired soon after.
Left early with my sis and collapsed on da comfy bed at 8+am. Just got up not long not because i had sufficient rest, but because my cramps are hurting me so much i wanted to cry. Like what da hell, i have my period right on Christmas day. -.-
Last but not least, ive uploaded all the pictures taken yesterday. Please please click here.
Oh yes, how can i forget. HO HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
p/s: Juan..you're driving is really okay..all u need is more practices and confidence i guess. No worries, you're good! At least better than you-kn0w-who. =))
sealed-with-a-kiss < 4:45:00 pm
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Thursday, December 23
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Tomorrow's X'mas Eve and i cant wait anymore longer cos its gonna be so fun this time (ihope bet). We're all going to Juan's house for a pot-luck party. There will be so much yummy food. Irresistable. Put away my diet plan, im gonna eat!
Im preparing almond jelly with longans, mini fruit tarts and cookies which i'll bake tomorrow! Busy day ahead. I CANT WAIT!
Oh yes. Heard about the MANGO SALES? Mango sales are usually crazy sales. Not surprisingly, i was one of em rushing down to Mango with Leanne after the project discussion just to buy my pair of brown velvet skirt i saw a couple of days back. Tell me im lucky, cos i found ONE piece as soon as i enter the shop, and it fits! Its only $29 for which the initial price was $49. I saved $20, hoorays. =)
Took the same bus home with Joshua. How unlucky can that be. Now i finally know, after being lucky, the unlucky stuffs appear. =X
So Mr Josh decided to take some pictures with his retarded cum act cute poses. *slaps forehead*
Im not going to school tomorrow cos i need my beauty sleep and sufficiently keep me awake the whole night cos its X'mas Eve and i dont intend to go home. Weeeeee.
Oh yah, i dislike people who try to find out stuffs about me or things like that. This is like my blog, my freedom of writing. Dont think i dont know what u're up to. I do.
Tomorrow's X'mas Eve and i cant wait anymore longer cos its gonna be so fun this time (i
Im preparing almond jelly with longans, mini fruit tarts and cookies which i'll bake tomorrow! Busy day ahead. I CANT WAIT!
Oh yes. Heard about the MANGO SALES? Mango sales are usually crazy sales. Not surprisingly, i was one of em rushing down to Mango with Leanne after the project discussion just to buy my pair of brown velvet skirt i saw a couple of days back. Tell me im lucky, cos i found ONE piece as soon as i enter the shop, and it fits! Its only $29 for which the initial price was $49. I saved $20, hoorays. =)
Took the same bus home with Joshua. How unlucky can that be. Now i finally know, after being lucky, the unlucky stuffs appear. =X
So Mr Josh decided to take some pictures with his retarded cum act cute poses. *slaps forehead*
Im not going to school tomorrow cos i need my beauty sleep and sufficiently keep me awake the whole night cos its X'mas Eve and i dont intend to go home. Weeeeee.
Oh yah, i dislike people who try to find out stuffs about me or things like that. This is like my blog, my freedom of writing. Dont think i dont know what u're up to. I do.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 9:12:00 pm
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Monday, December 20
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I thought i got it over, i thought the intense feeling was much lesser as the time passes, i thought i could no longer think about him and his interest, i thought i could, but now its proven, i have not.
Im pretty much affected by what was written in his testimonial, im pretty much affected by realising the truth, pretty much affected by how he had been treating me for the past 2 weeks, so aloof, so cold. Im pretty much affected by every step and movement he made, pretty much affected by the changes around you and me.
Im so sick and tired of it all. I feel like such a loser in this game. Im sorry i cant brace myself up and had to be a sore loser. Does he really think i enjoy being twirled round and round his fingers, walking right into his trap with every step made. I dont fancy being cheated, i dont fancy being fooled and played.
Stop stepping in my heart, my world. Move away and let me breathe. Im choked, suffocated. Its so hard to even breathe once. My heart skipped a beat when i saw what was written, my eyes turned fiery red with anger, my tears rolled without control, the sour feeling was within me.
I guess i think too much, i guess the ultimate loser was still me. Why did he even bother to ask me if im attached when he no longer cares. Why did he even bother to question me when he himself found a new girl. Why does he pretend to be affected or concerned be it when im attached or not.
I know. I know it all. You're just hoping i'll walk into your trap once again. Its okay, i'll be good. Santa will send me a new guy some time soon. I hope. A girl wouldnt be that bad either. =]
I thought i got it over, i thought the intense feeling was much lesser as the time passes, i thought i could no longer think about him and his interest, i thought i could, but now its proven, i have not.
Im pretty much affected by what was written in his testimonial, im pretty much affected by realising the truth, pretty much affected by how he had been treating me for the past 2 weeks, so aloof, so cold. Im pretty much affected by every step and movement he made, pretty much affected by the changes around you and me.
Im so sick and tired of it all. I feel like such a loser in this game. Im sorry i cant brace myself up and had to be a sore loser. Does he really think i enjoy being twirled round and round his fingers, walking right into his trap with every step made. I dont fancy being cheated, i dont fancy being fooled and played.
Stop stepping in my heart, my world. Move away and let me breathe. Im choked, suffocated. Its so hard to even breathe once. My heart skipped a beat when i saw what was written, my eyes turned fiery red with anger, my tears rolled without control, the sour feeling was within me.
I guess i think too much, i guess the ultimate loser was still me. Why did he even bother to ask me if im attached when he no longer cares. Why did he even bother to question me when he himself found a new girl. Why does he pretend to be affected or concerned be it when im attached or not.
I know. I know it all. You're just hoping i'll walk into your trap once again. Its okay, i'll be good. Santa will send me a new guy some time soon. I hope. A girl wouldnt be that bad either. =]
sealed-with-a-kiss < 8:47:00 pm
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Sunday, December 19
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Time for new updates! Leanne, your wish is being fulfilled. Im sucha nice friend, despite feeling so tired right now. lol.
Yesterday, hit town with Ting, Juan, Amos, Wayne, Leonard and Derrick. Caught Love, so divine with em together with Juan's brother and all. All 10 of us. The movie was rather typical, but its still not bad. I kinda like Korean production. 3/5 stars!
After which, headed to Jalan Kayu for supper cos i had a craving for pratas! Took helluva pictures to past time, too lazy to update em all. The picture you see on the right is Me, Ting, Juan and Daphne who we saw outside Cineleisure.
Reached home about 4+am. Went to bed at 5+am and woke up at 2+pm. Left home to meet Lyn, Ting and Juan to go Pasir Ris for a bbq. Cos its WEIYANG'S BIRTHDAY!
Happy birthday to you~ Happy birthday to you~ Happy birthday to yangyang! Happy birthday to you!
Got home early today cos of numerous reasons. Moreover school's on tomorrow at 9am.
Sigh. Daddy's having his moodswings again. Menopause sia he. Cannot take it. =(
Time for new updates! Leanne, your wish is being fulfilled. Im sucha nice friend, despite feeling so tired right now. lol.
Yesterday, hit town with Ting, Juan, Amos, Wayne, Leonard and Derrick. Caught Love, so divine with em together with Juan's brother and all. All 10 of us. The movie was rather typical, but its still not bad. I kinda like Korean production. 3/5 stars!
After which, headed to Jalan Kayu for supper cos i had a craving for pratas! Took helluva pictures to past time, too lazy to update em all. The picture you see on the right is Me, Ting, Juan and Daphne who we saw outside Cineleisure.
Reached home about 4+am. Went to bed at 5+am and woke up at 2+pm. Left home to meet Lyn, Ting and Juan to go Pasir Ris for a bbq. Cos its WEIYANG'S BIRTHDAY!
Happy birthday to you~ Happy birthday to you~ Happy birthday to yangyang! Happy birthday to you!
Got home early today cos of numerous reasons. Moreover school's on tomorrow at 9am.
Sigh. Daddy's having his moodswings again. Menopause sia he. Cannot take it. =(
sealed-with-a-kiss < 11:02:00 pm
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Ting, Juan and I with the X'mas tree in town. Yes, its abit dark i know, too bad!
Ting, Juan and I with the X'mas tree in town. Yes, its abit dark i know, too bad!
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:53:00 pm
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Friday, December 17
sealed-with-a-kiss < 9:25:00 pm
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sealed-with-a-kiss < 9:23:00 pm
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Thursday, December 16
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I felt that today's lecture was fantabulous. Its about Perception.
Perception is based on individual's first impression. It may change over time or last for quite some time. Most humans believe in only what they see, while a fair number of the population on Mother Earth also believe in what they hear. After the lecture, i finally came to realise that perception may not be reality. What you see, may not be the truth.
An example i heard last semester, if you see a Phillipino in Singapore, most Singapore citizens would perceive her as a maid. But this may not be the truth, it isnt a must that all female Phillipinos are maids, is there?
Each and everyone of our perception and judgement are bias. That's how the phrase, "Never judge a book by its cover" came about. Im sure many of us have came across such situations whereby we make a misjudgement about someone based on first impression basis or on the particular person's appearance.
Stereotyping is definately an unfair and bias way of judging somebody. But in the real world, who doesnt stereotype? I cant deny that i do that too. Hence, the lecture taught me never judge someone based on the first impression and stuffs.
Even in my course itself, there are so many badmouthings and backstabbing, passing of rumours here and there from each and every's mouth. Im often perceived as a typical Singapore Ah lian, or worst, act ah lian and any other terrible names you can think of. Now tell me, how fair is that?
My coursemates, my friends. People that i do not wish to reveal as im afraid it may lead to more resentments and stuffs, (you know who you girls are) have definately been wrongly judged and accused by imbeciles and making life so damn difficult for her. What's the point at the end of the day? Is there some sort of self-achievement and satisfaction you idiots get after scorning another you do not like? How long can that feeling last? If you feel good after reprimanding and criticising the latter, you must be damn sick in the head. I'll strongly urge you to see a psychiatrist or attend Psychology CDS. It may help.
My point of this entry, is to tell all loyal readers of mine, never to judge someone based on your first impression. Have some flexibility in your life, it will be good to others as well as yourself. Also, perception need not be reality. Looking at different angles of things give you different conclusions. Seeing is believing, but seeing is not the truth. And of cos, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
And now, its your own perception of listening and doing what ive to say. There are no foes that can last for a lifetime. Open up your heart and let bygones be bygones. Sometimes it feels so heavy and difficult to keep an enemy in your heart. I feel so jaded.
I felt that today's lecture was fantabulous. Its about Perception.
Perception is based on individual's first impression. It may change over time or last for quite some time. Most humans believe in only what they see, while a fair number of the population on Mother Earth also believe in what they hear. After the lecture, i finally came to realise that perception may not be reality. What you see, may not be the truth.
An example i heard last semester, if you see a Phillipino in Singapore, most Singapore citizens would perceive her as a maid. But this may not be the truth, it isnt a must that all female Phillipinos are maids, is there?
Each and everyone of our perception and judgement are bias. That's how the phrase, "Never judge a book by its cover" came about. Im sure many of us have came across such situations whereby we make a misjudgement about someone based on first impression basis or on the particular person's appearance.
Stereotyping is definately an unfair and bias way of judging somebody. But in the real world, who doesnt stereotype? I cant deny that i do that too. Hence, the lecture taught me never judge someone based on the first impression and stuffs.
Even in my course itself, there are so many badmouthings and backstabbing, passing of rumours here and there from each and every's mouth. Im often perceived as a typical Singapore Ah lian, or worst, act ah lian and any other terrible names you can think of. Now tell me, how fair is that?
My coursemates, my friends. People that i do not wish to reveal as im afraid it may lead to more resentments and stuffs, (you know who you girls are) have definately been wrongly judged and accused by imbeciles and making life so damn difficult for her. What's the point at the end of the day? Is there some sort of self-achievement and satisfaction you idiots get after scorning another you do not like? How long can that feeling last? If you feel good after reprimanding and criticising the latter, you must be damn sick in the head. I'll strongly urge you to see a psychiatrist or attend Psychology CDS. It may help.
My point of this entry, is to tell all loyal readers of mine, never to judge someone based on your first impression. Have some flexibility in your life, it will be good to others as well as yourself. Also, perception need not be reality. Looking at different angles of things give you different conclusions. Seeing is believing, but seeing is not the truth. And of cos, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
And now, its your own perception of listening and doing what ive to say. There are no foes that can last for a lifetime. Open up your heart and let bygones be bygones. Sometimes it feels so heavy and difficult to keep an enemy in your heart. I feel so jaded.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 9:24:00 pm
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Wednesday, December 15
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Today's like the best day of the week! Firstly, i deleted ALL his messages in my handphone last night and teared a little before falling into a deep sleep. To me, its over. ITS ALL OVER. Am i glad or what?
Secondly, i met so many people in school today! During lunch break especially at the Business canteen. Not gonna identify every single one of them, i'll be nuts if i do so. But i saw Raymond, and its the first time we talked face to face. Are you looking at this, Ray? Am gonna say it once more, you're really friendly! tt's it. lol.
Thirdly, i met up with my 2 bestest guy friend, Adrian and Nicholas as well as their other friend and blah blah after Psychology lecture which ended at 7pm! Boy was i dying of hunger. Adrian treated me to stingray and rojak at Bedok. It was sumptious, totally wonderful! Thanks boy, ure the best! Then we went to chill at East Coast before Adrian drove me home.
Both Adrian and Nicholas are going to NS on Friday! Which also includes Kusagami and Winshire. So many of em! Oh man, i'll definately miss my two best friends and all the supper and everything else. Make sure no one breaks my heart, if not there's no one to accompany me to East Coast anymore. Now you two know how important you peeps are to me heh?
Was supposed to meet up with Lyn and Ting for dinner. So sorry girls, i had to cancel it. Cos this is most prolly the last time i get to meet up with the guys before they go in NS. Am not forgoing you darlings for guys. Hope you understand. Cya on Sat!
HE smsed me about an hour ago whether im attached. Ive no idea why he thought so. Maybe he's affected by my msn nick, but again, i doubt. No, i am NOT attached but neither am i still interested in you. Or rather should i say, i'm jaded of all the waiting and getting involved playing around in your game. I give up! Its game over baby, G A M E O V E R. 10s to consider if i wanna continue, but NO. 10s up. That's it. GOODBYE.
Today's like the best day of the week! Firstly, i deleted ALL his messages in my handphone last night and teared a little before falling into a deep sleep. To me, its over. ITS ALL OVER. Am i glad or what?
Secondly, i met so many people in school today! During lunch break especially at the Business canteen. Not gonna identify every single one of them, i'll be nuts if i do so. But i saw Raymond, and its the first time we talked face to face. Are you looking at this, Ray? Am gonna say it once more, you're really friendly! tt's it. lol.
Thirdly, i met up with my 2 bestest guy friend, Adrian and Nicholas as well as their other friend and blah blah after Psychology lecture which ended at 7pm! Boy was i dying of hunger. Adrian treated me to stingray and rojak at Bedok. It was sumptious, totally wonderful! Thanks boy, ure the best! Then we went to chill at East Coast before Adrian drove me home.
Both Adrian and Nicholas are going to NS on Friday! Which also includes Kusagami and Winshire. So many of em! Oh man, i'll definately miss my two best friends and all the supper and everything else. Make sure no one breaks my heart, if not there's no one to accompany me to East Coast anymore. Now you two know how important you peeps are to me heh?
Was supposed to meet up with Lyn and Ting for dinner. So sorry girls, i had to cancel it. Cos this is most prolly the last time i get to meet up with the guys before they go in NS. Am not forgoing you darlings for guys. Hope you understand. Cya on Sat!
HE smsed me about an hour ago whether im attached. Ive no idea why he thought so. Maybe he's affected by my msn nick, but again, i doubt. No, i am NOT attached but neither am i still interested in you. Or rather should i say, i'm jaded of all the waiting and getting involved playing around in your game. I give up! Its game over baby, G A M E O V E R. 10s to consider if i wanna continue, but NO. 10s up. That's it. GOODBYE.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 11:02:00 pm
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Sunday, December 12
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This is dedicated to a friend of mine who i do not wish to reveal. Ive no idea if you do read my blog. But nonetheless, hope you wont feel that upset and stressed up anymore.
I've fell in and outta love countless times. Be it just a crush or an infatuation, mere good impression or just a like, i used to say i love. But no, these are not love. Its just an emotion i have at that point of time.
Love is about acceptance. Accepting the person for who she/he is. Not just loving her/his good points, but also her/his bad points and looking at it in a different angle pretending it was good. There's no point giving a period of time and hopefully she/he changes to suit yourself or changing she/he to what you want or like.
Love is not all just about being together. If you love someone, there isnt a must to be with that someone. At least that's what i feel. You can beg to differ, its upon each's perception. What's the point of being together when your character clashes with that of the other even when the love between is so strong. How long can both of you withhold that intense feeling for each other? 1 month? 1 year? But so what? One with definately be jaded of this stressful relationship even if both made an effort to keep it going.
Love is not about time. The duration of being together is often a factor why a couple doesnt want to end a fruitless relationship. People often couldnt bear to part with someone when they have been together for quite some time. Yes, that feeling is really hard to bear and it sucks a hell lot. But you gotta pull yourself out of it and get over em. So what if you're together for 2 years or 3? You still have 20, 30 years more to go for the rest of your life. Would you rather be upset after breaking up a relationship that's only a few months or years? Or continue to suffer and drag on for the next half of your life?
This is something i learnt from my cousin. She have been dating her ex boyfriend for a whole 10 years. But she couldnt go on, cos he became a drunkard and spending money lavishly. She too, had to let go of a decade's relationship. And that's how she got married with another guy she dated for about a year or so, and they're so happily together right now. Now, who said love and marriage is about time?
Humans always say, "Never let a love go pass you, always tell your love one i love you and blah blah blah etc. " Partially, i feel its true. But to me, as long as you've done your best, you've given in your all and you've expressed to her/him but destiny doesnt pull you two together, then accept the fact. This is fate. Let her/him go, dont sulk and slowly get over her/him.
I've tried my best to get it going, ive given in my all and had been faithful throughout, ive told him i love you, ive been accepting your every bad points i dislike, ive been loving him for who he is and ive been dragging it for too long. Now i knew that this is fate, and this is the destiny, im willing to let go and give up on him. I too know that ive been his spare tyre all along, i know that he have been playing that game on me, including the mind game which i almost lost and got defeated with two hands down. I know that love isnt about being together with him.
Loving somebody is definately different from being with that somebody. No?
I agree its hard to get over someone. But with determination and strength, telling yourself you can, then you definately can do it. I used to tell myself, no..i cant get over him, i tried but i still cant, i love him too much, he is like part of my life, no matter how hard i tried i couldnt. But now i feel, these are all bullshits. If you've tried hard and you still couldnt get over someone, then you're definately not trying hard enough. Be focus and keep it in mind that you're going to forget him/her. Cast away all the happy memories and the sweet nothings. Be firm and be true to yourself. Say it once that you're gonna forget him/her and make sure you do. Whats the point of saying and not doing it?
Im not a good lover myself, i too have lotsa ups and downs in relationship. I seriously do not know so much about love and relationship. But this is what i feel and what i do. Everything lies in your own hands, cos its your love and your relationship, your life. Passerbys can only advice, heeding it or not is up to yourself.
If i can get out of a love which used to be so damn strong, i dont see why you cant. Keep trying but dont force yourself. Keep it cool my friend, and may you seek happiness soon.
This is dedicated to a friend of mine who i do not wish to reveal. Ive no idea if you do read my blog. But nonetheless, hope you wont feel that upset and stressed up anymore.
I've fell in and outta love countless times. Be it just a crush or an infatuation, mere good impression or just a like, i used to say i love. But no, these are not love. Its just an emotion i have at that point of time.
Love is about acceptance. Accepting the person for who she/he is. Not just loving her/his good points, but also her/his bad points and looking at it in a different angle pretending it was good. There's no point giving a period of time and hopefully she/he changes to suit yourself or changing she/he to what you want or like.
Love is not all just about being together. If you love someone, there isnt a must to be with that someone. At least that's what i feel. You can beg to differ, its upon each's perception. What's the point of being together when your character clashes with that of the other even when the love between is so strong. How long can both of you withhold that intense feeling for each other? 1 month? 1 year? But so what? One with definately be jaded of this stressful relationship even if both made an effort to keep it going.
Love is not about time. The duration of being together is often a factor why a couple doesnt want to end a fruitless relationship. People often couldnt bear to part with someone when they have been together for quite some time. Yes, that feeling is really hard to bear and it sucks a hell lot. But you gotta pull yourself out of it and get over em. So what if you're together for 2 years or 3? You still have 20, 30 years more to go for the rest of your life. Would you rather be upset after breaking up a relationship that's only a few months or years? Or continue to suffer and drag on for the next half of your life?
This is something i learnt from my cousin. She have been dating her ex boyfriend for a whole 10 years. But she couldnt go on, cos he became a drunkard and spending money lavishly. She too, had to let go of a decade's relationship. And that's how she got married with another guy she dated for about a year or so, and they're so happily together right now. Now, who said love and marriage is about time?
Humans always say, "Never let a love go pass you, always tell your love one i love you and blah blah blah etc. " Partially, i feel its true. But to me, as long as you've done your best, you've given in your all and you've expressed to her/him but destiny doesnt pull you two together, then accept the fact. This is fate. Let her/him go, dont sulk and slowly get over her/him.
I've tried my best to get it going, ive given in my all and had been faithful throughout, ive told him i love you, ive been accepting your every bad points i dislike, ive been loving him for who he is and ive been dragging it for too long. Now i knew that this is fate, and this is the destiny, im willing to let go and give up on him. I too know that ive been his spare tyre all along, i know that he have been playing that game on me, including the mind game which i almost lost and got defeated with two hands down. I know that love isnt about being together with him.
Loving somebody is definately different from being with that somebody. No?
I agree its hard to get over someone. But with determination and strength, telling yourself you can, then you definately can do it. I used to tell myself, no..i cant get over him, i tried but i still cant, i love him too much, he is like part of my life, no matter how hard i tried i couldnt. But now i feel, these are all bullshits. If you've tried hard and you still couldnt get over someone, then you're definately not trying hard enough. Be focus and keep it in mind that you're going to forget him/her. Cast away all the happy memories and the sweet nothings. Be firm and be true to yourself. Say it once that you're gonna forget him/her and make sure you do. Whats the point of saying and not doing it?
Im not a good lover myself, i too have lotsa ups and downs in relationship. I seriously do not know so much about love and relationship. But this is what i feel and what i do. Everything lies in your own hands, cos its your love and your relationship, your life. Passerbys can only advice, heeding it or not is up to yourself.
If i can get out of a love which used to be so damn strong, i dont see why you cant. Keep trying but dont force yourself. Keep it cool my friend, and may you seek happiness soon.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 2:31:00 pm
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Friday, December 10
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Im home! Back with lotsa stuffs and a good sumptious meal from Fish and Co. The food's great, but the servicesux. [ya know who im referring to :winks:] Im kidding anyway!
Met up with mummy and sis after shopping with Leanne, Grace and Zhiyi after school. The 4 of us skipped the A&F day thingy and went shopping at Tampines Mall. Mummy, sis and I went shopping at Parkway. I bought so much so much! Mummy spent close to $300 just in a few hours. I love mummy!
Billabong sling bag, OP brown skirt-shorts, OP shorts, OP black file, Black nail polish, T3 pimple cream, Nail polish remover, Gillette shaver, Loreal toner, some chemicals for the hair to make it look good, Hot oil for hair.
I think that's about it. My mummy and sis bought some other stuffs as well. The only thing i need now is a dark brown skirt prolly from Mango or Roxy, or some other nicer ones that ive yet to fancy, Adidas jacket, waterbottle and a pair of slip-ons prolly brown in colour.
I love X'mas!
Im going Sentosa tomorrow! I cant wait!
Im home! Back with lotsa stuffs and a good sumptious meal from Fish and Co. The food's great, but the service
Met up with mummy and sis after shopping with Leanne, Grace and Zhiyi after school. The 4 of us skipped the A&F day thingy and went shopping at Tampines Mall. Mummy, sis and I went shopping at Parkway. I bought so much so much! Mummy spent close to $300 just in a few hours. I love mummy!
Billabong sling bag, OP brown skirt-shorts, OP shorts, OP black file, Black nail polish, T3 pimple cream, Nail polish remover, Gillette shaver, Loreal toner, some chemicals for the hair to make it look good, Hot oil for hair.
I think that's about it. My mummy and sis bought some other stuffs as well. The only thing i need now is a dark brown skirt prolly from Mango or Roxy, or some other nicer ones that ive yet to fancy, Adidas jacket, waterbottle and a pair of slip-ons prolly brown in colour.
I love X'mas!
Im going Sentosa tomorrow! I cant wait!
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:02:00 pm
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Wednesday, December 8
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Great! I spent so much money again. Like a full time shopaholic, buying whatever that caught my eye. Oh gawwdd..
Met my sis in town after lecture today. Terrible jam with lotsa road accidents at PIE. I had a 5 hours break from 1-6pm. And my lecture commenced at 6pm which i was too lazy to head back to school. In other words, i skipped my very first psychology lecture. Job well done Amber.
I bought a great deal of stuffs. My sis and i spent about $200 altogether today. 3 tank tops, 1 light brown very sweet tube, 1 red bikini, a pair of black velvet slippers and a pair of heels.
Sis treated me to lunch at Hans and i treated her dinner at Yoshinoya. JingYang came to join us midway and we had a great time joking and fooling around while shopping for stuffs.
Im beginning to hang out more with my sis and her friends nowadays. We're going to the beach again on Sat! Make it a weekly event my dear friends. I'll be more than glad to join u peeps! I love ya all.
Im waiting for my dim sum buffet and sushi buffet. lol.
Great! I spent so much money again. Like a full time shopaholic, buying whatever that caught my eye. Oh gawwdd..
Met my sis in town after lecture today. Terrible jam with lotsa road accidents at PIE. I had a 5 hours break from 1-6pm. And my lecture commenced at 6pm which i was too lazy to head back to school. In other words, i skipped my very first psychology lecture. Job well done Amber.
I bought a great deal of stuffs. My sis and i spent about $200 altogether today. 3 tank tops, 1 light brown very sweet tube, 1 red bikini, a pair of black velvet slippers and a pair of heels.
Sis treated me to lunch at Hans and i treated her dinner at Yoshinoya. JingYang came to join us midway and we had a great time joking and fooling around while shopping for stuffs.
Im beginning to hang out more with my sis and her friends nowadays. We're going to the beach again on Sat! Make it a weekly event my dear friends. I'll be more than glad to join u peeps! I love ya all.
Im waiting for my dim sum buffet and sushi buffet. lol.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:29:00 pm
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Monday, December 6
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Went shopping at Tampines Mall and Bugis with my fellow polymates today after the oh-so-boring lecture which i fell asleep halfway through. 8 of us went for lunch and the remaining 4 - Me, Leanne, Grace and Anisha, went for a shop.
Bought a light brown skirt and a brown top. That's Leanne and me in the picture and beside it is a pair of rose scented candles Leanne bought for me from Perth. So sweet of her! Thanks loads sweetie!
Initially i only intended to buy a pair of cheap slippers from Bugis Street. But it seemed like the shop had closed down and i ended up buying stuffs i do not need. -slaps forehead- Moreover, i want a dark brown skirt instead of a light brown one. In other words, im gonna spend spend spend again when my pay comes.
Yay. School's started. Project not done. Haha. Good sia! 4 more days to date due. Im loving it.
Went shopping at Tampines Mall and Bugis with my fellow polymates today after the oh-so-boring lecture which i fell asleep halfway through. 8 of us went for lunch and the remaining 4 - Me, Leanne, Grace and Anisha, went for a shop.
Bought a light brown skirt and a brown top. That's Leanne and me in the picture and beside it is a pair of rose scented candles Leanne bought for me from Perth. So sweet of her! Thanks loads sweetie!
Initially i only intended to buy a pair of cheap slippers from Bugis Street. But it seemed like the shop had closed down and i ended up buying stuffs i do not need. -slaps forehead- Moreover, i want a dark brown skirt instead of a light brown one. In other words, im gonna spend spend spend again when my pay comes.
Yay. School's started. Project not done. Haha. Good sia! 4 more days to date due. Im loving it.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 5:18:00 pm
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Sunday, December 5
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That's my new hair cut i got today. Yes yes i know its weird. But my stylist, Raymond loves to give me weird hairstyles. =]
Just got home from town with my mates. Caught Without A Paddle. It was damn hilarious and nice. I like it. Highly recommended. 4.5 stars!
So dead tired now, im going to bath and hit the sack. =I
That's my new hair cut i got today. Yes yes i know its weird. But my stylist, Raymond loves to give me weird hairstyles. =]
Just got home from town with my mates. Caught Without A Paddle. It was damn hilarious and nice. I like it. Highly recommended. 4.5 stars!
So dead tired now, im going to bath and hit the sack. =I
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Saturday, December 4
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Just woke up from my beauty sleep. Had a helluva fun time yesterday. Hit Sentosa again, this time round with Him, my sis, Winshire and Jing Yang. Knew some new people there too, mainly my sister's friends.
I sat there alone watching em play beach volleyball. Reminds me of the old times at TP's sports hall. I was tanning and watching at the same time when JingYang came over to accompany me. We talked a little about each's problems.
Throughout the day in Sentosa, he and i didnt talk much. And i felt quite upset over some stuffs. Maybe i was oversensitive. But i just couldnt help it but to feel this way. We had our dinner together with JingYang at the hawker centre while my sis went with the others to Chinatown.
The most memorable thing ever happened yesterday was the bus journey. Just the two of us. I was going to Jermz's place to meet him and hit Rouge later that night while he was going to hit the bed. With my head lying on his comfy shoulders, and his on top of mine, i hope the bus ride never ends.
Dont wanna go into further elaboration anymore, all i know now is i still love him and im always thinking of him. No matter what, how much hurts, how impossible. The idea of letting go paused for a moment again. I guess i have to talk it out with him again some time soon. And i bet he will prolly run away from this issue once again. Like whats new.
Rouge was great last night. The music was much better than Chinablack, but the crowd aint that good. I din dance at all. Maybe say, about 10 minutes? I was so tired, my eyes were closing. And i actually slept on the table. They were forcing me to drink and drink and drink i felt so hot, so high. Then i decided not to go on, lease i get myself drunk and start talking craps and shits and history repeats.
I love my sister's group of volleyball mates. I love to hit the beach with them. And im definately going Sentosa with em more often. I love to tann, i love to sleep under the scorching sun. I love to see my body and face red and dark after the sun sets, it gives me a sense of achievement. I love feeling the breeze and let the wind hit my face, i love watching the beautiful sky in the horizon with a mixture of red and gold as the sun sets. I love to admire the endless sea out in the open, i love the beach.
Just woke up from my beauty sleep. Had a helluva fun time yesterday. Hit Sentosa again, this time round with Him, my sis, Winshire and Jing Yang. Knew some new people there too, mainly my sister's friends.
I sat there alone watching em play beach volleyball. Reminds me of the old times at TP's sports hall. I was tanning and watching at the same time when JingYang came over to accompany me. We talked a little about each's problems.
Throughout the day in Sentosa, he and i didnt talk much. And i felt quite upset over some stuffs. Maybe i was oversensitive. But i just couldnt help it but to feel this way. We had our dinner together with JingYang at the hawker centre while my sis went with the others to Chinatown.
The most memorable thing ever happened yesterday was the bus journey. Just the two of us. I was going to Jermz's place to meet him and hit Rouge later that night while he was going to hit the bed. With my head lying on his comfy shoulders, and his on top of mine, i hope the bus ride never ends.
Dont wanna go into further elaboration anymore, all i know now is i still love him and im always thinking of him. No matter what, how much hurts, how impossible. The idea of letting go paused for a moment again. I guess i have to talk it out with him again some time soon. And i bet he will prolly run away from this issue once again. Like whats new.
Rouge was great last night. The music was much better than Chinablack, but the crowd aint that good. I din dance at all. Maybe say, about 10 minutes? I was so tired, my eyes were closing. And i actually slept on the table. They were forcing me to drink and drink and drink i felt so hot, so high. Then i decided not to go on, lease i get myself drunk and start talking craps and shits and history repeats.
I love my sister's group of volleyball mates. I love to hit the beach with them. And im definately going Sentosa with em more often. I love to tann, i love to sleep under the scorching sun. I love to see my body and face red and dark after the sun sets, it gives me a sense of achievement. I love feeling the breeze and let the wind hit my face, i love watching the beautiful sky in the horizon with a mixture of red and gold as the sun sets. I love to admire the endless sea out in the open, i love the beach.
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